If I had not…

Permit me to think aloud just this once,

To bare my mind of things locked for months;

Permit me to say things the way they are,

Things emotionally unutterable, horrifying and bizarre;

I remember Jesus speak, of a man then living,

That it would have been better if he…

So I’m straight from my heart here imagining if I had not been…

I would never have known neglect & never would have felt rejection,

If only I had not…

I wouldn’t have known suffering or the ‘comfort’ of solitude,

I wouldn’t have a cold heart or this ‘lonely’ attitude;

I’ve tasted more tears than water,

The hurt makes me cry till I begin to stutter;

God! If only I had not.
Written By John Eiyemi